Jealousy: “a jealous disposition, attitude or feeling”
(Merriam Webster’s Collegiate Dictionary 11th edition)
Today I found myself with “a jealous disposition, attitude AND feeling”. I asked myself why, and found after searching my jealous heart, that I was disappointed about something in my life that I cannot change. I also realized that I was angry with God for not rearranging the galaxies so
I. Can. Have. What. I. Want. Right. Now.
Whoa! Is this what I want my focus to be on…what I “feel” I’m entitled to but cannot have? Do I really want to be angry with the God of Creation, Who is Omniscient? Of course not. But what does God’s Word have to say about my jealousy, and how can my “jealous disposition, attitude and feeling” change?
Exodus 20 is a good place to start… The Amplified Bible says in verse 2, “I am the Lord your God, Who has brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage”. I compare that verse to my days as a “pre-Christ-Follower” when I lived in a desert wandering around in bondage to an unknown enemy. I am truly thankful to no longer live in bondage in Egypt.
Again, from The Amplified Bible, parts of verses 3-5 say, “You shall have no other gods before or besides Me. You shall not make yourself any graven image [to worship it]…You shall not bow down yourself to them or serve them; for I the Lord your God am a jealous God…”
When I allow myself to be caught up in jealousy, my situation and my focus become my god. I see myself on the throne of my life dictating my desires to my Savior. My wants and perceived needs become the graven image of my worship, and I am bowing down and serving myself, not my God.
“O unhappy and pitiable and wretched man that I am! Who will release and deliver me from [the shackles of] this body of death?” Romans 7:24
O, Lord, forgive me for being selfish and wanting my way. I thank You for Your Word which is healing to my soul. You have prepared a banquet table full of Your riches where my mind can be renewed and hope restored. You alone satisfy the cry of my heart and I am filled to overflowing with Your love and mercy. You are my God and I want no other. Amen.
Some food for thought:
“For I will pour water upon him who is thirsty, and floods on the dry ground…” Isaiah 44:3a
“…and My people shall be satisfied with My goodness, says the Lord.” Jeremiah 31:14b
“For He satisfies the longing soul; and fills the hungry soul with good.” Psalms 107:9
“Blessed and fortunate and happy and spiritually prosperous [that is, in that state in which the born-again child of God enjoys His favor and salvation] are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness (uprightness and right standing with God), for they shall be completely satisfied!” Matthew 5:6