I was speaking to young man yesterday whom I’d only met briefly once before, he knew Mimi and I were serving as Intercessory Missionaries and was interested in my thoughts on the difficulties of walking out the life of an Intercessory Missionary. As I considered my answer, I realized it was not something unique to our calling, but was a common difficulty for all called by Christ and perhaps even more so for the independent minded, self governing, self reliant, self promoting, freedom loving American Christian. After all, more than 200 years ago we cast off the rule of a king and have ever since advanced the idea that as free men we will never be subjugated willingly again. (But that’s another topic altogether.)
He is a God of Relationship
The difficulty I speak of is the challenge to position my heart before God daily. To allow Him into my life today, for today. Because He is a God of relationship, He desires to know me daily, to experience me daily. Yesterdays time together is not sufficient for today, nor was it ever designed to be. I have lived much of my life in this kind of arms length relationship, wanting Him to come in closer only as my need dictates or as I desire. Because His greatest desire is to know me intimately in every moment in a voluntary loving relationship He will not push my arm aside and force Himself upon me. That is not in His nature, His attribute of love will not allow this forceful taking of what is not willingly given. To do so would be a violation of the worst kind.
So, in my weak heart, my difficulty is saying yes daily to walk with Him. This is why Jesus taught us to pray in a manner after what Christian thought refers to as the “Lords Prayer” and in teaching us to ask for our daily bread, He establishes the idea that we are to daily live in relationship with our Father. This presumes that in this relationship, like that of a child in the household of God, our lives are entwined in daily living.